This is a blog post I’ve been meaning to write for a while now, sadly blogging has to take a backseat in my life now I’m a Mum but I’ll try to be a bit more regular over the next few months.
I’d like to tell you all a few of the reasons why each week, I choose to upload personal parts of my life to the internet for thousands of people to watch. Why my Husband Stef and I vlog.
No doubt you’d find it hard to believe that I grew up incredibly shy. I was the little girl whose face would burn a hot bright red in class when asked to read extracts of Kill a Mockingbird. I was the girl who’d hide behind my mum’s thighs when new faces appeared. I was the girl who hid under the kitchen table at her 5th birthday party because I didn’t like the attention. I was the girl that chose all my university modules based on the ones that didn’t require public speaking or presentations.
I have never been an extrovert, I’ve never enjoyed or felt the need for attention (unlike my husband Stef), which is why vlogging is such a strange little paradox for me to find myself in. You see, if someone had said to me three years ago that it will be rare to leave the house and not be recognised by people who watch our videos, I probably would have hidden under the kitchen table!
But none the less, here we are and here I am wanting to explain the core reasons why we do this each week.
There are all sorts of reasons that motivate people like us to share our lives with thousands of people each week. Some may be motivated by the financial gain, some will be driven by ego, some for validation. Some may want a creative little hobby they can do from the comfort of their bedroom, where they feel part of a community of like-minded individuals, and where they can make virtual friends. Others, like myself, create content purely because they want to create a sort of legacy for our family.
From a very early age, I’ve always logged my life in a diary. So you see, for me blogging was really was a natural evolution then in turn, vlogging. Now I have a son, I want him to be able to see his life and his family and how much he is loved from such an early age. I want him to live all the things he’d never be able to remember. I must add too, that somehow, vlogging has vastly improved my self confidence and although I still feel that way in certain situations, it’s far from the painfully shy and embarrassed girl I used to be. So, yes, all of the above are included when you are a content creator, but what matters most is you’re doing it for the right reason.
Yes, I’ll admit, there are some days when I can think of nothing worse than pointing a camera in my face and essentially ‘presenting’ my life. Most of the time though, I love it. I love being able to capture moments that next week, my tiny little brain would have most likely lost forever. Little smiles and glances from my son and husband, places we went to, jokes we shared, moments we captured. I love the way vlogging forces me to look into places I would never normally look into, or even subjectively acknowledge for that matter.
Vlogging makes me not just look at the world around me but see it. I love the challenge of trying to capture how a place, moment, or event actually happened. I love trying to get the right composition in shots and leave people wanting to see more. But most of all, I love that all these days and moments are now eternally available for future generations of my family to watch. I love to think that one day our great, great, great Grandchildren could be sat together one Christmas eve, catching up with the vlogs.
This is the reason the content we produce will never be contrived. We don’t care about making some money to mention a new gadget we only care about making content with dignity. If ever we do make something commercial, then it will only be if we can do it with the dignity we constantly strive for.
Broadcasting intimate parts of your life can sometimes be like throwing a lamb into a lion cage, people will always have their opinions about the way you live your life and the inevitable mistakes we all make. Some people aren’t shy in sharing those opinions, but as a content creator you need to step back, breathe, remember the bigger picture and why you choose to do this in the first place.
Publishing personal and sometimes intimate moments of your life to the world comes with a heavy responsibility and for me, that is to show my life realistically. I’ll never just act happy, if I’m having a bad week, I’ll just admit that. I’m obligated to show a realistic interpretation of what motherhood is like, and it’s so important to me that my viewers trust and value my opinion. I want to inspire people, but mostly make them feel happy.
Anyway, whatever motivation you have to vlog your life, it will unintentionally shine though, no matter how good you think you are at disguising it. If our weekly vlog ever stopped being an enjoyable, positive and creative thing for Stef and I to produce together, then we wouldn’t be doing it anymore. What’s most important to both of us is that our Son Grayson will one day be able to watch these videos, and see exactly how much love our little family has, and all the fun we have together. I want him to watch it and be proud of how he has been raised.
And we also want to give something to you to look forward to each Sunday.